Nana

I like the times I spent with Nana..
I like his encouraging words, disciplined life..
I like the songs we share..
I like how supportive he is of the things I do..
I like the way he guides me and prays for me..
I like his positive mindset..
I like it that everytime we talk, I learn something new about life and about us..
I like him being non-judgemental of me..
I like the way he cracks the little jokes, makes himself silly but make me happy..
I like the trust within us..
I like his company..
I like his healthy lifestyle..
I like his real personality, no hidden nature..
I like the way he is able to come out with a solution for me when my mind is clouded..
I like the way he points me to God and tells me to trust God..
I like the way he affirms me when I feel uncertain of myself..

The feeling is so much different when I spent time with others..
Increasingly I realised some gatherings r fruitless and I do wan to move on from that. I dun wan any unwholesome and empty time spent anymore..
Its so not my nature..

I rather have more personal time for myself or spend time on a one to one basis..
Time by myself allows God to speak with me n develop my character.. Thats wat I need and wat I wan..

I absolutely detest time wasters!

My Dearest.. I do love you :)

For nana n family..

I m going into a period of intense serious work for this few weeks.
There are things which no matter how much I wan to do.
I just can't do it now.
There are ppl whom I wan to spend time with.
I just can't do it now.
If you truely love me, you will understand this is the decision I have made.

Pray for me whenever you can and commit me to the Lord...
That's what I want..

Jesus take the wheel,
Take it from my hands,
Cos I can't do it on my own,
I'm letting it go,
Give me one more chance,
Save me from this road I'm on.

Dreams..

My dreams will not just remain in my head, they will be put into action..
Letting noone stop me..
Letting noone steal it..

Just wait, I say I will do it..
I will do it with all my heart..

No hinderance..
No half heartedness..

I will fight fight fight to fulfill my dreams..

It will be a tough fight..
But it shall have a good beginning..
And a desirable end..

Let the countdown begin :)

Thanksgiving!

There is so much I can thank God for, so much that such that words are not able to express how my heart feels :)

A tough week has gone by though there will be another 4 tough weeks ahead of me..
There is no fear in my heart because You are always around..
Your love and peace have always saturated my heart and soul..
I can't feel the stress overcoming me anymore..
There are no more fires engulfing me or waves overcoming me..
My cries have always been smoothened by help and love You provided for me..
You have always held my hand whenever I am falling..
You have always reminded me that You love me even before I was born..
You have given me people whom I can trust and confide in..
You have given me family both here in adelaide and singapore..
Your hands are forever stretched out to me..

I will fight for You..
I will fight for the dreams which You have rooted in my heart..
I will bathe myself in Your Word both day and night..
I will do my best in everything and anything in my life because I Love YOU..

I just want to say that You are my God, my darling, my love..
Forever irreplaceable..

I am so glad that though life has been busy for me..
My ears have not become deaf to Your promptings..
My heart and soul has not forgotten You..
You have not stopped calling me..
However insignificant I am, You have made me important and precious in Your sight..

Psalm 9:10

" Those who know Your name will trust in You,
For You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You."

The week of horror!

It has been the worse week ever. I am battery low, lacking of rest, sick of being sick and at the same time covered by a huge mountain of work..Sorry that you guys were worried abt me but I know you guys genuinely cared :)

I m trying to take tmr off but pretty much unlikely.. Lets hope tmr's symposium discussion is real short.. Oh well! I should just stop dreaming..

30 more days and I can have my rest.. I so want to fly to Gold Coast now.. Yes! NOW!

Time out!

I have approximately 40 days left to cover so much material.

God, will you make me smarter, more disciplined, work faster, healthier and wiser? Please Please Please :)

Pardon me!

The last few days my temper gets triggered off much more easily than usual..
Maybe its because of my fever and sore throat that is irritating me so much..
Maybe its because of a heavy workload..
Maybe its because of insufficient rest..

I just need sometime for myself..
I need some space..
I explain only to people whom I choose to share..

I prefer no expectations to be placed on me..
Expectations = Disappointment

Let me have my way for 2 months.. Let me get this work done first.. Perhaps things will get better in July..

I need a big warm teddy bear hug! Lotsa homecooked food! Heaps of love and care expressions!